Pure. Love. Vulnerable. Soft Power.
My journey began already at a young age. Feeling unworthy, insecure and unhappy in my life and on this earth, my mom would drag me to various alternative therapies, which helped me a lot going into puberty. Permeated with a feeling of wanting to be of service to the world, combined with my interest for human behaviour, I studied Criminology and joined the National Police where I worked as a detective. A dream from childhood. And there I met my own battlefield.
How do I stay true to myself, to my soft emphatic character, in a harsh and masculine environment...
As if life gave me a push, with the sudden loss of my mother,
my relationship that broke up and not much later I turned out to have cancer, all safety was pulled away from me. I had to find and know myself all over again, which brought me on a deep journey within.
I started to learn how to carry myself, learning what "scripts" I was unconsciously stuck in. I learned more and more to take responsibility for my own feelings and to let my happiness depend less on and from the outside world. Also, the question "Am I living my most beautiful life?" arose for me. These questions brought me on a beautiful journey, in which I could discover my true essence. A journey in which I started to get rid of my identity, conditioning, expectations, patterns, judgments and desires to control life. A continuous unfolding in the openness of life itself.
Including it all
During my journey I learned that everything is allowed to be here, especially the human messiness. That the voice that said that I should have felt certain feelings by now, or where "spirituality" not allowed to feel anymore, was again a new conditioning. I discovered that the true art of living is openness to every experience, every feeling. We don't have to do anything for that, we just have to step out of the way. Every feeling, every thought and sensation in our body, our pain, fear, sadness and shame, received in loving presence. I experienced that from that openness you can hold all parts of yourself in love and transform them. It's eating the darkness to become lighter and lighter.
I feel a deep longing for real, deep and vulnerable connections in life. Connections where everything may be completely there, based on authenticity, responsibility and presence.
I feel a deep desire for the whole world to be able to connect with each other in this way. Where every living being can recognize itself in everything and everyone around. Without one exception, we are all one with our own uniqueness. To know this, and above all to feel and live this. To let our light shine for the benefit of the earth and humanity. Do you dare to stand in your light again? I invite you for that.
In loving presence,
I'm looking forward to meet you!
In Love & Gratitude,